Taylor Swift - Mine

You were in college working part time waiting tablesLeft a small town, never looked backI was a flight risk with a fear of fallingWondering why we bother with love if it never lasts
I say can you believe it?As we're lying on the couchThe moment I could see itYes, yes, I can see it now
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?You put your arm around me for the first timeYou made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughterYou are the best thing that's ever been mine
Flash forward and we're taking on the world togetherAnd there's a drawer of my things at your placeYou learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guardedYou say we'll never make my parents' mistakes
But we got bills to payWe got nothing figured outWhen it was hard to takeYes, yes, this is what I thought about
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?You put your arm around me for the first timeYou made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughterYou are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?You saw me start to believe for the first timeYou made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughterYou are the best thing that's ever been mine
And I remember that fight, 2:30 a.m.As everything was slipping right out of our handsI ran out crying and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the goodbye'Cause that's all I've ever knownThen you took me by surpriseYou said I'll never leave you alone
You said I remember how we felt sitting by the waterAnd every time I look at you, it's like the first timeI fell in love with a careless man's careful daughterShe is the best thing that's ever been mine
Hold on, make it lastHold on, never turn backYou made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughterYou are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you believe it?We're gonna make it nowI can see itI can see it now

Florence + The Machine - Shake it out

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around
And our love is pastured such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off

And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It's a fine romance but its left me so undone
It's always darkest before the dawn

Oh woah, oh woah...

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

a pile of sadness

"Halo,
Apakabar mas?

Kapan terakhir kali kita bertemu mas? Terakhir kali kuingat sepertinya kamu lebih kurus. Apakah kamu sudah wisuda sekarang? Apakah setelah lulus kamu akan pergi ke daerah-daerah terpencil dan mengerjakan proyek di sana? Apakah kamu masih suka berpetualang, memanjat gunung dan menyelam?

Mas,
Apakah kamu masih suka bernyanyi di pagi hari? Apakah kamu masih suka bermain futsal? Apakah kamu masih menggemari k-pop? Apakah kamu masih mengikuti komik One Piece favoritmu? Apakah tas laptop eiger yang kuberikan sebagai ulang tahunmu dulu masih kamu simpan? Apakah kamu pernah memakainya?

Mas,
kudengar kamu telah menemukan gadis dambaanmu. Apakah dia menerima lamaranmu? Apakah kamu bercerita tentang keinginanmu untuk berbulan madu di atas gunung, sama seperti saat dulu kamu masih bersamaku? Ataukah, kamu punya rencana lain bersamanya? Apakah kamu masih berhasrat untuk mengunjungi Jepang dan Inggris?

Mas,
Bolehkah aku sedikit membayangkan masa depanmu? Akhirnya kamu akan menikahi gadis pujaanmu itu. Dia gadis yang sempurna bukan? Tidak sepertiku. Kamu akan memiliki anak perempuan yang lucu seperti afika darinya. Apakah kamu akan menamainya Hana Zafira? Aku juga suka nama itu. Sungguh keluarga yang bahagia. Apakah sekarang kamu bahagia mas?

Mas,
Apakah kamu masih mengingatku?"

Entah sejak kapan aku mulai menulis surat untuknya, tanpa nama dan tanpa alamat. Sengaja surat itu tak pernah aku kirimkan. Isi surat itu selalu sama, tentang pertanyaan-pertanyaan, meskipun aku rasa aku tahu apa jawabannya. Aku sedikit berharap, dengan terus-menerus bertanya aku akan mendapatkan jawaban yang berbeda. Atau mungkin juga, aku terlalu takut untuk mengetahui kenyataan dan semua jawaban darinya. Kulipat secarik kertas itu dan kumasukkan ke dalam amplop. Kusimpan hati-hati dalam sebuah kotak khusus, bergabung bersama dengan puluhan surat lainnya dan kesedihan didalamnya.

Suatu saat nanti

Suatu saat nanti, akan datang padamu seseorang yang menyukai senyummu.
Suatu saat nanti, akan datang padamu seseorang yang jatuh cinta pada tawamu.
Suatu saat nanti, akan datang padamu seseorang yang senang mendengar suaramu.
Suatu saat nanti, akan datang padamu seseorang yang memandang wajahmu seakan kau lah ciptaan Tuhan paling indah.
Suatu saat nanti, akan datang padamu seseorang yang rela berbagi hidupnya denganmu.
Dialah orang yang akan mencintaimu. Seseorang yang telah Tuhan ciptakan khusus untukmu, hanya untukmu.
Karena itu, bersabarlah.
Karena dia akan datang, untukmu. Ya, dia akan datang untukmu.
Suatu saat nanti.

Maroon 5 - Payphone

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be
It's even harder to picture
That you're not here next to me
You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more f*cking love song I'll be sick

You turned your back on tomorrow
Cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow
But just gave it away
You can't expect me to be fine
I don't expect you to care
I know I've said it before
But all of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more  f*cking  love song I'll be sick

Now I'm at a payphone...

[Wiz Khalifa]
Man work that sh*t
I'll be out spending all this money while you sitting round
Wondering why it wasn't you who came up from nothing
Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I'm stunning
And all of my cars start with the push up a button
Telling me the chances I blew up or whatever you call it
Switched the number to my phone
So you never could call it
Don't need my name on my show
You can tell it I'm ballin'
Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could've saw
But sad to say it's over for
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now ask me who they want
So you can go and take that little piece of sh*t with you

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more  f*cking  love song I'll be sick

Now I'm at a payphone...

Greyson Chance - Unfriend you

I really thought you were the one
It was over before it begun
It's so hard for me to walk away
But I know I can't stay

You're beautiful and crazy too
Maybe that's why I fell into you
Even though you would pretend to be
You were never with me

So it's over yeah we're through, so I'm a unfriend you
You're the best liar ever knew, so I'll unfriend you
Cause I should have known, right from the start
I'm deleting you right from my heart
Yeah it's over, my last move is to unfriend you

I thought in time that you could change
And my time and love would heal the pain
And I didn't want this day to come
But now all I feel is numb

So it's over yeah we're through, so I'm a unfriend you
You're the best liar ever knew, so I'm a unfriend you
Cause I should have known, right from the start
I'm deleting you right from my heart
Yeah it's over, my last move is to unfriend you

You come on to everybody
Everybody all the time
You give up to anybody
What I thought was only mine

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oooooooh

So it's over yeah we're through, so I'm a unfriend you
You're the best liar ever knew, so I'm a unfriend you
'Cause I should have known, right from the start
That you didn't have a human heart
Yeah it's over my last move is to unfriend you
Unfriend you

Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Woah ohh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
So I'm a unfriend you
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

So I'm a unfriend you

hectic

hi there :D

I've been extremely busy recently.

Entah kenapa tahun ini terasa luar biasa berat, banyak tantangannya. Mungkinkah ada hubungannya dengan tahun naga? Tapi aku merasa, klw bisa melewati semua ini, I'll get something in return, like a great achievement.

Misal, sekarang aku udah semester 6. Semester ini aku ada 7 praktikum dalam seminggu. Padahal seminggu aja aktif hari kuliah hanya 5 hari (senin sampai jumat), bayangin coba gimana padetnya jadwal kuliahku :-| Nonstop almost everyday masuk kuliah jam 7 pagi dan baru selesai approximately  jam 4 sore. Belum lagi ditambah dengan kerjaan praktikum yang harus diselesaikan di rumah atau laporan" yg bejibun.

Nah, kebetulan aku jg jd asisten salah satu praktikum, jadi ada satu hari dimana aku pulang lebih sore.   Trus proposal PKM-ku lolos, itu loh, Program Kreativitas Mahasiswa yang didanai oleh DIKTI. Jadi makin banyak kerjaan. Belum lagi aku ikut salahsatu UKM dan menjadi panitia di 3 rangkaian acara, posisi sebagai kordinator. Ditambah lagi tahun ini aku -insyaallah- bakal KKN antar semester.

Kuliah. Praktikum. Laporan. Asistensi. PKM. Organisasi. KKN.

Imagine that.

Padahal aku juga masih punya tanggungan pribadi semisal cuci baju, nyetrika, istirahat, ibadah, dll. Saking hectic-nya sering banget tidur jam 2 atau jam 3 pagi, dan langsung lanjut kuliah esok paginya. Pernah juga seminggu berturut" dari senin sampai minggu full ada rapat, bahkan sampai rapatnya bentrok karena diadain di jam yang sama. Really, it was a total chaos. Diri sendiri bener" ga keurus. Jarang banget ada dikos, paling cuma pas mw tidur aja.

Klw dipikir", pasti diluar sana jauh lebih banyak orang yg jadwalnya lebih padat, sampai" membutuhkan seorang manajer. Klw cuma segini mah, bukan apa" yah? :P

Like I said before, this is like a challenge to me. If I can handle all of this, I'll become a better person. Kayak lagi ditempa supaya semakin kuat! It's always nice to know that you are being needed by many, dependable, trusted. Lastly, moga" aku bisa menjalankan setiap amanah yg dipercayakan :) Good luck to you all!

perih

ada di hati, sebuah kenangan tersembunyi
terkubur
sebuah cinta yang dijaga dan disimpan rapat
namun terkadang ia mengintip lalu lolos di sudut mata
hadir sebagai tetes perih, suatu kerinduan yang dalam

mari kita saling melupakan

perlahan kita akan saling melupakan
tak seorang pun akan mengingat kisah kita
hanya tersisa serpihan memori samar, yang bahkan enggan untuk dikenang
dan setiap pertanyaan, biarlah berakhir di tanda tanya
jawabannya tersembunyi di hati kita masing-masing, entahlah apa akan pernah terungkap
karena kita telah sama-sama membisu, terlalu lelah untuk menyatakan
biarlah rasa ini hilang
rasa kita akan hilang
mari kita saling melupakan

"Setiap wanita adalah berlian, tapi hanya satu pria yang dapat membuatnya selalu bersinar."

- @prizzluna

Blogging (again), yeay!

Hi there fellas :D

Akhir" ini aku lagi semangat nulis. Emang yah, inspirasi itu bisa dateng dari mana aja. Biasanya sih yg lagi jatuh cinta tiba" jd pintar merangkai kata bwt ungkapin rasa cintanya itu. Atw yg lagi patah hati, jadi pengen ngegalau terus. In my case, hasrat nulis dateng gara" galau patah hati. Err.. ga jg sih, emang pada dasarnya suka nulis cuma ga sempet aja bwt nulis d blog. >> ALIBI DETECTED

Nah, kebetulan salah satu resolusi 2012 adalah menulis! Alhasil aku coba buka blog zaman sma - yg isinya mostly puisi cinta labil lol :)) - dan permak sana sini. Mohon maklum yah templatenya sederhana, pengen bikin yg seorisinal mungkin and I'll try to constantly write something here ;)


Bwt temen" yg suka blogging, mohon izin yah bwt naruh link nya di blog ini :D Menyenangkan bisa melihat sisi lainnya dari teman" kita. Aku rasa, tulisan itu lebih jujur daripada apa yang biasa kita lihat. So, watch out guys, I'm gonna stalk your blogs. :P Huahahaha

Fix me, I'm broken

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